Tuesday, September 23, 2008

YAY..

daddy came down and paid me a visit..and then he'll be off to singapore and russia..*sighhhhhhhsssss* i miss my home and my family...i suddenly feel super nostalgic about it all..i cannot imagine where wud i be without my great daddy and terrific mummy..i WANNNNAAAAAAA go hommmeeeeeee...
no words can suffice what i want to express now. no emotion can descibe the feeling i'm feeling now.
you have always been a constant in my life. you've seen the ups and also the downs.
although i tend to complain and argue with you a lot, you never used violence against me eventhough ýou've reached your limit.
but know that i don't hold hard-held feelings and grudges against you for all the punishment that has been meted out to me.
you have given me the best that life has to offer but i just took it for granted.
you provided everything and give me everything that i have ever wanted.
i know i've been spoiled rotten since my birth and i have also known that i was born with a silver spoon in my mouth and are more privileged than many.
i had the best that money can buy but i was still not satisfied.
it is only when i know what was being sacrificed for that to happen that i feel guilt and remorse.
you have worried about me constantly for sleepless nights until your own health has deteriorated but still i was more important than your own health.
you should take good care of your health as you cannot leave me all alone in this harsh environment - i won't let you.
you have protected and sheltered me from the outside world since i was born so as i would not be exposed to the cruelty of the world.
whatever mistakes i have done-trust me, i have committed many, you have forgiven them all.
you tend to berate me constantly too as you're worried you might not be able to do so in the near future,
but i took it as a bunch of usual naggings.
you expect a lot from me not because you want me to fulfill your dreams but because you know that i am capable of achieving the best.
all of your dreams are all dreams concerning me and my future.
i have more often than not been disappointing you and letting you down with my playfulness and by not taking it seriously.
you have suffered through it all in silence without a single word to any of us and had shouldered the burden alone.
in the hopes of not worrying us at all.
therefore, regardless of everything else, there is only 1 thing that you should know,
that i LOVE YOU no matter what and that no1 can replace you.